Offsite Update Feb-March
Hello everyone, it makes me happy to say the process of making art has been engaging in some ways, mostly in learning or even relearning how things look. Some links have been posted in status updates already but it didn't feel right to leave them out, hence repeats. I'm still gathering energy to socialize at a fuller capacity with people I don't know too well, so for anyone wondering if they said or did something wrong, you're in the clear.
All Tomorrows - Snake Person, Lamia
Serina - Fellstar (I goofed up the quote, but in my defense most of the drawing was carried out at night.)
Serina - Timber (fancharacter) doodle and height chart with bio
Offsite Update
Since I don't properly upload my work directly here by choice, and I generally want to share my work with the public, making journal entries with links is a compromise I can manage. It keeps the literature category cleaner, which I imagine the staff would appreciate in a small way.
So in chronological order, here's a batch of All Tomorrows artwork I did after the pterosapien piece.
And, that's all for now. More may come soon-ish, depending on my workload as I'm currently dedicating more creative juice to knitting and crochet for an upcoming market. It's a little stressful, though I remain hopeful of my efforts finding good homes.
Untitled
Happy Holidays, it's been a busy one so far. The way knitting eats up time is a reason I attempt some projects out of season, so that some meet the deadline days before Christmas.
Reaching a few crafting milestones boosted my energy enough to start another project after completing a small sweater. This is barely sustainable, so at some point the needles gotta be dropped temporarily. We'll see where this goes.
Late September Thoughts
Hey everyone, it's been a while since a proper (using that adjective loosely) journal post has been written here to inform you what's happening with me and life itself. In truth, not a lot of it can be said to preserve some semblance of privacy, what's left of it. But I'm not here to be a complete downer when I say I've stretched myself a bit thin with art goals and friendships. Let's start with the latter to peel off the bandaid.
I've ghosted people on ideological grounds instead of being civil and saying "yeah, I don't agree with that because I think that's uncharitable." I've also found it difficult to maintain connections with people in general due to failing to account for my own mental health. And you'd think that makes me bitter about people, but I feel mostly guilt. It's near impossible for me to genuinely hate someone, and I truly wish everyone I've ever met to make the best of their life however they can. These times are so, so tough. I'm very sorry for causing you grief through my flakiness, you deserve so much better.
On the positive, I've found some people over the years who've been so kind to me and stuck around. I find it baffling because, again, I don't think highly of myself and just try hard to be some measure of a decent human. Nonetheless, I'm grateful for the kindness and friendship we've fostered together over tumblr and twitch. The jokes we've cracked, the stories we've shared, and encouragement through hard times, these are all treasured. And they will be treasured for years to come.
Now, with art, I just wanted to do so much with it and had to come to terms with most of those goals being out of reach at this time. It was a devastating realization viewed from a point of loss, and a weight off my shoulders at the same time. The way had cleared as a puddle does when silt lays undisturbed, and settling into a smaller array of artistic pursuits felt easier. The details of the journey are still fuzzy to me, but that's also just part of the fun. If we knew it all from the start, wouldn't that be boring? Wherever we're going, I hope it'll be a fun ride with you along the way.
It's okay if you don't know your calling yet. It'll probably find you before you go get it, when you stop and look around.
Hi again.
Hey everyone, I wanted to let you know I'm not dead. In fact, I've been pretty busy sorting out a few nasty symptoms with a combination of mindfulness, medicine, and yard work. That's just sandwiched between my responsibilities. Normally, I'd explain further, but there's something vaguely uncomfortable about laying the specifics out on this site.
Just know offline life has given me a fair bit to process, some of which are unavoidable milestones. Only way out is through.
That said, I'll continue to keep fairly quiet here as I take care of myself, and others. Take care, get fresh air, and be kind to yourself.